Current mood:	sleepy
Current music:	Matt Costa

About Me
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i want to do so much in life. i want to see the rest of the world. i want to photograph it all. write it all down, and flatten it to a page. mold it into music that melts into your ears. i want to make an attempt at peace, not just because the sign looks cool. no, thats really what i want. a world where there is no hate based on opinions. opinions based on lies and assumptions. sure, i dare to be different. but what do you dare to do? go ahead, leave me out of your little "clubs". have fun with your late nights filled with alcohol and drugs. i will be better off with my film and quarter notes. the passion that i live with can be daunting to some. silly to others. everyone has there "thing". that thing that fills their mind 24/7. for some people, its a person. for others, its a hobby. for me, its music and photography. i cant explain how at home i feel behind that lens. some people think im insane because i say i "need" a camera. and honestly, to an extent i do. photography takes me into this world that nothing else could do. some people claim they love photography, but trust me, not as much as me. then we go into music. music? the biggest part of me, no doubt. no a days, everyone claims to be music obsessed. but music is what makes me and can break me. its what fills my head. its what fills my mind, my ears, my heart, my soul and not to mention my walls. i cant live without a cd in my stereo. and YES i do still purchase cds. and i plan on buying them till they stop making those suckers. i love to pick apart songs, one sound at a time. identifying each part. yes, that means i can pick out each instrument and narrow in on it. almost like, its all i can hear. i love songs that speak with lovely words. not just simple words. but those describing right down to the last thread words. i wish i knew how to paint with my words. yet another thing i have yet to mastered, is to rope my words. things always sound better in my head, then again my mind is flowing with random ideas. i have so much to accomplish, to buy, to make, to create. its scary, but in that feel good optimistic kind of way. woah, I’ve gone insane. i feel like im reaching the surface, its so close i can taste it. but im not there yet. so close, but not there. ive changed so much this year. You don’t even know all. the people I’ve met and the people who've hurt me: it all happened for a reason. the people i have around me right now are the best I’ve got, for the most part. there’s still a few kinks ive go to work out, and im still finding myself but im sure as hell a lot closer then i was before. I can honestly say I have never given into peer pressure. Not once have I ever taken any sort of drug, smoked, or drank. I plan on staying that way for the rest of my life. Some people think it's because I'm afraid to take a risk, and sure that might be part of it. I dont want to risk addiction. or being drunk, and doing things I'll regret farther down the line. I wear my heart on sleeve. A lot of people don't like that about me. If I'm in a bad mood, I'm not gonna lie and say I'm not. I'm straight up honest when it comes to my feelings. Don't get me wrong, sometimes I'll hide them. But I'm trying to stop that. People who take what they have for advantage really anger me. If only people knew what they have. I try my best to never follow the people around me. And I've reached a point in my life where I REALLY don't care what anyone else in the whole entire world thinks of me. I am ME. I'm a sucker for anything acoustic. There's so much more emotion in things when they are simplified. Stripped down to its core. I plan on being a foreign exchange student next year. And honestly? I can't wait to find myself. I won't lie to you. Shows are my life. They are what I live for. To me, theres no better feeling then being squished into a small venue with 46436 other people and sweating your guts out. I've seen countless bands, but one that stands out to me is Paramore. Those guys are my role models and my everything. They are such sweethearts, and truly adore their fans. This will be my 7th time seeing them at the end of the month. Really, it never gets old. Shows also tie into my other passion, photography. I want to be a photographer for AP magazine, and go to a bunch of festivals. I feel more comfortable taking pictures of bands performing then anything else in the world. Passion seeps from people on stage, and to capture it is like no other feeling in the world.